Deadnamed on Santa's Shitlist

by Tawni Marshall

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This one goes out to all of my friends who've been looked down on as strangers by family, to all my loved ones who've made the best of a holiday in estrangement, and to my beautiful chosen family who had me when nobody else would.

Merry Christmas and all my love.
💙💜💙

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Wrapping the gifts at the very last minute.
Your grandkids asleep in the very next room.
Down to the wire, but I think that we did it.
Mom, they're gonna love it.
Merry Christmas to you.

I'll make the breakfast that you always did.
Clean up the kitchen and play with the kids.
Making new memories as they are relived.

Out in the driveway, you wait in the car,
In town for some work thing, a last minute call.
Tell the boy he's getting tall, just like his daddy.
I unload the presents.
I'm not here at all.

So much has happened, and so much was missed.
Between the card for the birthday and car full of gifts.
You say it's hard to see me like this.
You had a son who had a son who you miss.
I'm deadnamed on Santa's shitlist.

Deleting a text that just says "Merry Christmas."
It's been a few years since last time you called.
Sometimes a few years can make all the difference.
Sometimes a few years get stuck in the craw.
So I'm wrapping the gifts at the very last minute.
Your grandkid's asleep in the very next room.
Your daughter's pretending that there's nothing missing,
I'm trying to be the mom that I needed from you.

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released December 3, 2023
written, arranged, performed, & produced by
Tawni Marshall

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by Echo Joy

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